Saturday, August 2, 2014

Ameen


Mak dan Adik dua-dua tak sedap badan raya hari tu. Barangkali badan terkejut terkena kedinginan hujan. Aku seorang saja yang segar bugar. Pasal aku memang doa mohon diturunkan hujan. 

Hari ni biasa-biasa tapi tetap bermakna. Paling nikmat bila dapat kacau Adik. Dia duduk situ main game senyap-senyap, maka di situlah aku konon-konon nak guna komputer juga. Dia tidur tenang, di situlah aku setia dengan tingkah laku paling annoying. Paling ganas aku lempang (sayang) saja dia. Tak pun pegang kepala dia, 


"Aku tengah serap kepandaian kau...! Argh..." stail kungfu.

Lepas tu dia balas dengan cubitan bertubi-tubi. I know, I'm already 23. So what?


Kalau borak-borak dengan Adik pula, macam-macam kami borakkan. Jelaslah Adik semakin dewasa. Adik made Kakak so proud... Isk isk. 


Dalam satu perbualan, adik akhiri dengan, "Kau kalau cakap macam ni depan orang, orang ingat kau liberal tahu tak?" seraya berseloroh.

Tak dilupakan, hari ni juga, di celah-celah perumahan pinggir bandar ni, yang orang nak datang beraya pun berdebar, tiba-tiba ada dua budak laki-laki anak siapa entah teriak dari luar nak raya. Apakah ini? Mak kata seruan Ustaz K supaya jangan marah budak-budak datang beraya. Maka Mak mempersilakan anak-anak tersebut. Gerak geri mereka tetap aku musykil. Overprotective instinct kata orang.


Paling bodoh yang aku buat petang tadi lepas deposit tunai, sebab menyampah simpan kertas lama-lama, dikoyak kemudian dibuang resit deposit tersebut. Janganlah tiba-tiba sistem data akaun buat hal tak detect duit masuk tu. Menangis aku nanti ketiadaan bukti transaksi. 


Setakat ni kawan sekolah lama pun aku belum contact. Aku agak dia pun tengah busy dengan aktiviti tersendiri. Tahun ni malas nak fikir pelan nak jumpa di mana, pakai baju apa dan lain-lain. 


Yang baca post ni mesti rasa syahdu dengan orang macam aku. Tapi kan, ada masanya, kau nak cuti kau diisi dengan sebanyak mungkin privacy. Gitu. Tapi mungkin dalam masa terdekat nak jumpa kawan aku C. Nak-nak aku belum bayar duit buku yang aku beli melalui dia. Bangga betul ada kawan yang pandai tulis cerpen ni. 


Misi aku esok, nak beli mi segera.




Thursday, July 24, 2014

Blue Baju Kurung



I'm coming home

I'm coming home
tell the World I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday


My respond, "I haven't get any drop of rain on my palms, yet. And Klang is no less hot than Cairo."

This year, I don't know what's so exciting about going home. If it wasn't because of my responsibility to my parents and elective posting, I preferred to sit quietly in my room in Cairo and read books, watch movie or fall asleep to the breeze by the rent house balcony. And if I am a guy, I'd travel alone or with a partner across Europe. 

As we arrived at KLIA, I lazily pulled the luggage trolley out. Like I said, I lost my excitement about going home. 

You, especially those who will be spending Eid in Egypt or any parts of the world other than Tanah Tumpahnya Darahku would slam me for saying that because this year, I've decided to join my housemate going back to Egypt a little bit late. I know, guilty as charged, right? Blame it on my daredevil instincts. 

Then again, I had my little brother here. Things felt better when I met my former high school tutor yesterday in an event. Puan Rohana, who made Physics and Additional Mathematics easy remembered me. I think that's a good sign.  

Maybe excitement is about to start soon.

Oh yes, speaking about that, I was a tuition addict back in high school. Nah, just for PMR and SPM. Biology at Bandar Bukit Tinggi, Physics and AddMath at Taman Sri Andalas and Chemistry at Klang town. 

Ala-ala menuntut dari mahaguru la ni. Haha.  Many students thought it won't be necessary for Biology tuition. You can read Biology by yourself. But hey, when you got better teaching, lesson is more interesting (good commercial catchphrase). 

Actually no, the real thing is, I was so lazy to read and practice by myself. That's why I registered into those tuition classes. You gotta do what you gotta do, okay?

Okay... High school was over. I am already 23. Let's live the moment. I can't wait to cook for my family. Err, maybe after Raya? Hehe. 



p/s: That 'tuition-addict-kind of spirit' I was trying to grab in Medicine. I know I can. God let me pass fifth year. 

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Bleeding Case Twice but Not This


I should post something short inspired by blood. Because we medical students must find five minutes getaway from 'hemoconcentration', 'hematocrite value', 'complete blood count', etc.

For an amateur like me, ideas won't come out easily. So, as soon as something pops into my mind, I will grab whatever in my hands to scribble down. Sticky notes, mini note book and the latest, a file entitled, 'Confidential' in my Samsung Galaxy S3. Well not the latest from Samsung but the newer phone than my humble, simple Nokia. 

I accidentally delete everything. I don't know how it happened but it happened, All 'prototypes' survived except this little dark one. 

Kids, copying and pasting using keyboards are better than using smartphone. Not that smart, huh?

I can only remember, 

"She ran her dagger softly, from the boy's throat downwards. How she smelt like vanilla sedated him. That dagger was neatly secured into his chest."

"She hugged him so hard that her white robe stained with blood, as if not to let one drop on the ground."

"His smile faded but both he and Amaya were happy."

Something I would write for my high school essays. Ah those days. 

Despite I lost it, I don't think I'll rewrite the same thing. It won't be the same the second time. 





Monday, April 21, 2014

Your Rainbow is with Me



Pemanas sendi-sendi jari tuan punya yang telah lama tak ada ilham. Terimalah, 

Pelangi Kelabu

Patutnya sekarang 
Aku sedang ubah suai projek peribadi aku.
Berbulan tarik tali, kata hati masih tak bulat.
Dari petang tadi jiwa tak keruan.
Beberapa jam sebelumnya dada aku sakit.
Perut, paru-paru atau jantung?
Tapi terlalu dekat tajamnya pada bucu jantung.
Selalunya beberapa saat.
Hari ini bisa helaan nafas lebih lima minit.
Apa kata kalau ajal di dalam sebuah dewan?
Mula-mula takut.
Kelamaan saraf euforia.
Pasti aku boleh tidur dengan tenang.
Berbanding benda sial yang wajib atas tengkuk aku.
Maut lebih manis.
Logiknya aku tak perlu terkejut.
Dongak ke atas sana.
Rembulan bercahaya penuh.
Patutlah.

Rekaan monolog terbaru. Nikmatilah perasanya. Rasakan sengsara itu, sama ada benar-benar wujud dalam kisah aku atau menurut khayalan kamu.



p/s: Sekali-sekala.