Pagi Jumaat yg sunyi, majoriti dak uma ak x bangun lg. Naqiyan Anis sdg lena tdo kt katil sbelah laptop yg ak nga mnaip blog nih. mcm biasa r, ak wat bapak 'pathetic' mrenung profile Myspace adik ksygn ak lama2, smentara beliau lom slesai solat Jumaat (dlm 1 pm lbey waktu M'sia, egypt: masih pg). Tu r yg ak wat ari2 kalo rindu kt adik.
mcm biasa gak, ak berdoa moga beliau tak menggemok smentara ketiadaan ak. sengsara weh jd org gemok ni. ak igt lg beliau mnangis sbbkn org sentuh isu sensitif ni. Stiap titis air mata beliau buat darah ak mnyirap. Masih ak igt buat kali pertamanya, dlm usia yg terlalu muda (geli r ayat cerpen ni), beliau mmulakan tajuk 'diet'. And yes, majoriti makanan mmg tolak kt ak lerr... Nyum3, ak tumpang tuah diet bliau... huhu
Slepas mak ak, beliau r org yg akn kata utk remnant mknnn yg paling last, "xpe, org xnk..."
yep, buat ak yg kuat mkn ni, ak sgt syg kt org cm nih. mmg ms tu beliau tekad kot. psst, nasi yaman 1 set tu sah2 ak sorg pn abes.
Well, bckp psl diet sbb member sume dok gelabah nk kuruskn bdn b4 balik Msia takut family terkejut beruk + nk mkn puas2 mknn msia cuti summer nti... buat mrk yg sdg dlm diet, moga anda punyai secubit smgt spt dearest brother ak... 'diet yg praktikal pasti berjaya'....! YEAH!
So dgr jela lgu blink 182 yg sering diputarkn kt profile uhh. x lupa gak lagu 'I Miss You' yg adik ak scara indirectly nye tujukan kt ak??? hahaha... ciss mmg sdey gler r dok bjauhan ngan kluarga ni.
p/s: pna konon nk diet utk cengkungkn pipi. CONSUMERISM VICTIM?
Friday, April 30, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
Until When?
skg ak nga pikir camne nk dptkn no. manager tempat ak pna kje dlu. ak takut r kn, kot2 ak ada wat dia kcik ati sbb ak ttbe jerr berhenti kje siap dh x peduli dah gaji ke apa ke, yg penting ak nak blah... kata2 dia yg terakhir,
"awk mintak kje pun bukan suka2 kn... ni xkn r suka2 je nk bhenti. awk tau kn nk bhenti kne 2lis surat sminggu awl..."
pehh, mkn dlm siot. ak pn ngan dingin nye, dlm ati ak yg penting ak dpt lari dari sorg mamat nih. tu jer. paling x gentle ak siap mntk tlg my Mom lg anta surat bhenti alg2 beliau kua ke bandar (haha, ala2 mcm r ak dok kt kg lak)....
"sy mintak maaf" then ak ltak phone. abes cter. ak belum cukup matang lg utk handle situation2 cmtuh.
adoi... serabut kpala otak ak. nk exam final ni baru la teringat balik... ni ikhlas ke tak ni nk mintak maaf? hee... azam ak nk bagi hadiah tanda mintak maaf kt sorg member nih pun ak tak buat lagi.
housemate ak try nk order cook... wt ak teringat kt tempat aku pna kje uhh. besnyer lahai kalo ak dpt kje lbey lama kt ctu. cuma ak x dpt get along lg ngan senior2 kt ctu jerr lg. apa2 pn ak syg mrk semua... yeahhh... tuah birthday girl r kalo cook door tu bjaye smpai uma ktorg... ngee... tp tu r, cian spe2 yg tpaksa celebrate birthday kt perantauan spanjang 6 thn tnpa kluarga di sisi... sabo jela my fren... kter snasib... yg penting moga Allah sentiasa meredhai setiap saat umur kter mningkat... ye dok?
p/s: mne r kter tau, dosa kter ngan manusia bkn tertakhluk pd org yg rpt ngan kter jer.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Ya Akhi
Housemate ak kata tukang masak ley jerr jd gemok hanya ngan asik bau jerr masakan yg dia masak. Tak mustahil ada benarnya gak. bila ak dh siap masak ni, mmg cm dh xley cerna apa2 r.... rasa muak jerr.. ak kagum bila housemates dpt telan lauk kicap yg ak rs pijar kt lidah uhh. mmg ak nga dlm proses menghilangkan mabuk pd bau makanan nih...
hmmm... pasni kne cari resepi yg bes2 yg lbey mudah r, Beit Humaira’ dh mula system giliran memasak secara perseorangan. ak ni lak jnis yg suka campak, or suaiu dan padan kalo bab masak ni... terima jela... makanan yg paling sedap ialah makanan semasa lapar. begitu r Rasulullah pun suruh kita berhenti sebelum kenyang. kalo makan sampai tersandar bukan nikmat kesihatan jerr terjejas, nikmat kelazatan makanan tu pun akn malap jerr... perasan tak? bila sampai tahap kita cuba utk sumbat segala benda dlm perut, tak ke lama2 senak...
alangkah besnye jika ak ley msk utk mak ak, sbb ak antara ank pmpuan yg kurang gemar turun padang ke dapur. tau2 mkn jerr... huhu... hopefully kt kg. nti takde r kena hentam, cm tahun2 sbelumnya, dsbbkn sgt tak biasa masuk dapur n anggap ptt nya rumah ada org gaji, bukan mak or suri rumah yg dok kt dapur... abes menggerutu keratinized stratified squamous epithelium bini2 yg asik kje kne dok kt dapur jerr... haha... mngarut jerr ak. (perghh, ‘batu juga ada keras itu kepala dia!!! tinggi sgt ke darjat uhh pantang xley masuk dapur????)... Mak ak kata, “mak darjah 3 dh masak lauk utk family”
then ak diam jela insaf masa tu... heh. moga2 Allah sentiasa melindungi keluargaku... buat adik tercinta, moga berat badan ko tak naik sbb rindu kt aku, nasyeed ni khas buatmu... MUAH!
Ya Akhi
(translated to English)
Oh My Brother!
Come closer to me, don’t leave me, my brother
Oh you who are a part my spirit with, my brother
Oh my light of my heart, my guide, my brother
Oh my brother, Oh my brother…
(Chorus) Oh My brother…
Come closer, don’t leave me, oh my brother
(chorus) Oh you who are a part my spirit with, oh my brother
Oh my light of my heart, my guide, my brother
Oh my brother, Oh my brother…
The world around me, is in darkness and in corruption
So put light in my path and exchange my darkness
With your light, ah your light…
A dawn rising from the vision of a path that leads to Al-Jannah
Oh My brother…
You are a blessing of Allah, the best brother
Oh my brother…
I have nothing bad in my heart against you
In all times, I see you with me
Present you are in all times with me in my sadness and happiness
Oh My Brother…
Come closer, don’t leave me, oh my brother
(chorus) Oh you who are a part my spirit with, oh my brother
Oh my light of my heart, my guide, my brother
Oh my brother, Oh my brother…
All those around me are like a mirage,
A mirage that deceives…
That claims it loves me, and is true kindness
If my life becomes pure, then, ah then most of them…
Such a surprise (Ajaban), where are they in my times of hardship?
Oh my brother…
You have wala (love) without bara’ (hate/shaming away)
You are so loyal to me in friendship
You don’t treat me with kindness only for a want to fulfill
Mercy fillah, what a blessing of a mercy
With your face that lights, you treat me with kindness
With all the meaning of the highness and elevation
Reach out to me your right hand
So we could go together in the path of light
In the path of Iza (honor, dignity, and pride [of Islam])
If in my life, a misery afflicts me
You were there to help me get over my misery
(Chorus) Tired, Weakened I was the day you came to me
You cared for me, saw my weakness and gave me strength
With your face that lights, you treat me with kindness
With all the meaning of the highness and elevation
Reach out to me your right hand
So we could go together in the path of light
In the path of Iza
Oh my Brother...
Come closer, don’t leave me, oh my brother
Oh you who are a part my spirit with, my brother
(chorus) Oh my light of my heart, my guide, my brother
Oh my brother, Oh my brother…
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
She who He Hates Most
Rs cm sayu jerr tgk blog post yg lama ouh… so ttbe rs cm nk mnaip di pagi (3.30 am) ni…
Ek eleyh… xde kje tol…
Suddenly this outdated girl got to this vid. Mngingatkan ak ttg sorg manusia yg sampai skg claim ak tipu dia. Yes, mmg ak tipu dia lepas ak tau siapa dia. By heart, ak tipu dia. jari jemari dlm video ni ingatkan ak kat dia, bukan ‘kenangkan’ ak kat dia. There WAS my dream watching him play. Cuma teringatkan DENDAM dia. Ak ulang, bukan melagha ttg dia. He said, “Yes that’s true’’ when I asked, “You made such grudge on me?”… post-high school thing. I decided to step back when I knew the real him.
Tup2 ak lari dari benda2 ngarut, masuk INTEC, then lari ke Egypt lak… Fuuhhh… xmo patah balik ke tempat yg xde hala tuju. And without any means, I made a vulnerable promise long time ago. Feels like a curse gak la… tah nape tah ak baik hati sgt tanya kaba nk tau dia ok ke x baru2 ni… Sah2 mmg tak okay r… paling teruk, mmg nmpk cm ak bukak luka semalam r kiranya… cehh… tlg r, Maya Dealove’s not so desperado… Padah juga, padah concern tak memasal… just ak hrp dia btul2 dpt lupakan at least muka ak mahupun spec ak walopun dia ckp, “It’s the pain you can never forget”(ak dibenci tahap gila)…
Apa2 hal pun ak x perlukan komen yg bbentuk PNGAJARAN or STUPID JOKE or “SIAPA DIA” utk post nih. U know, I really tried to cut off emotions in this post. Your bad if it’s too sentimental.
p/s: Believe me, it’s NOT feelings I posted here. It’s how much ppl can hate me as much I used to hate life back then.
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