Final Semester: Medicine First Year, Cairo University 2010

aku tgk bberapa member dh post blog ttg first day at school (university, for the 2^nd semester)... well, aku pn nk post gk laa... ahaha...  ngada2 (mana ada ngada2... manja jerr... whatever)

xde pe sgt yg berlaku hari ni... Syukur dan Maha Suci Allah menjaga mataku drpd mngantuk... aku x tdo or even tersengguk lgsung dlm smua kelas, tp ad la gak mnguap dlm kelas CVS; sbab x cukup oksigen utk mnampung tenaga yg dh digunapakai utk pemahaman dlm ECG... haha... pusing sana pusing sini... haddoiii...

Ak rasa sungguh terharu Allah beri aku & kwn2 kesempatan bernafas sekali lagi utk mnyambung jihad kami semua di medan ilmu ni...  Bangun jerr dari tidur, “I’M ALIVE!!!” Sekali lagi Alhamdulillah... Aku akn cuba taip laju2, in compete with my heart beat sbb aku kena baca balik segala selok belok berbelit2 benda2 yg dh blajar arini dlm lecture.... fuhh3... (mcm vasalva’s method jerr...muahaha...)

arini, spt yg dijangkakan, akhawat kembali bergabung ngan ikhwah, i mean in terms of sitting in the same lecture hall...  walaupun xsmua kelas (dsbbkn bbrapa perbezaan tajuk yg diajar ataupun adakah lecturer tersalah faham? apa2 jela... heh)... bagi aku takde beza pun, seperti yg ‘golongan2 tertentu’ pikir... kelas berjalan spt biasa, lecturer semuanya masih ada kaliber masing2 yg tersendiri... member yg ditukar kpd lecturer baru pun otaknya ‘black out terus’... b4 this orientation even gets into trial...wujud beberapa respon negative sesetengah pihak... tp aku lebih memilih kpd, “u never know until u try”... cuba amalkan attitude seorang professional, bukannya menggelabah spt pe yg aku dh bbrapa kali nmpk dlm kalangan batch aku sendiri... senang cter, jgn ‘serabut2’, tak baik utk ‘kesihatan’ anda... muahaha... bukanlah kita sewenang2 nya2 berbuat sesuatu pbaharuan itu tanpa memikirkan risiko, tapi mata aku jelas nmpk, this idea does not put us at the edge of the cliff, but instead a challenge we put on our shoulders, a challenge that it’s been about time for us... risks are even at the safest place on Earth.

tp aku sgt faham, krn aku syg saudara2 ku, aku nmpk juga apa yg mereka nmpk (fikir atau takut atau waspada)... tp bg aku, selagi kita istiqamah, jgn la risau pd perubahan kpd kebaikan.... moga2 takde sentiment “selfishness” or any negative qualities dlm hati smasa anda mngemukakan hujah2 masa perjumpaan hari tuh, baik yg mempunyai pendapat sebijik mcm aku mahupun yg bercanggah dgn nya... ^_^  moga2 semuanya berjalan lancar dari semester Tahun Satu sampai bila2 pun... Kalo ada apa2 dugaan pun moga2 persaudaraan kita tetap ‘maintain’...  amin~

p/s: mode sentimental  kot. heh.

Yum-O!

Now it’s been at noon, i tried to start my “Healthy Yum-O’ diet with a half of cup of oats from Ragab Aulad Market. Or is it Aulad Ragab? Whatever. I know it sounds, “YUCKS!!!”, so i put in some sugar, small chunks of bananas and some milk. I tasted it. Now it tastes “YUCKS, YUCKS!!!”.... Muahaha... Now what do we have? Unfinished meal besides my laptop. Burp, I’m already full a.k.a. lost my appetite. 

It’s so Yum-O huh? Well it’s not! Haha. But I like it. Just not with the taste. Like I was sticking my throat with bunches of glutens. I can see the polysaccharide glue stretching out from it when I was lifting the spoon... Fuh3, you can do it... There’s nothing like a healthy diet...That’s what we call eating oat. Maya Dealove, just another bite... You can do it... 

Tried so hard to make friends of you, my dear (Mr Oat)... But your taste is still the same.Huk3... (wow, saw a carbonated drink on the table, think it’s mine...muahahaha)

Oh yeah... bout the last post, the title of the book I mentioned was ‘Muhammad: As If He is Here’. Actually, it should be, ‘Muhammad: As if You can See Him’... Tadaa...

p/s: ttbe aten aqila pass Chipsy kat aku... haha. nasib la, rosak dh diet hari ni... hehehe....

Till We See the Satellite

dah lama dah jari jemari aku ni tak mnari2 atas keyboard ni haa... aku rasa Beit Humaira’ dh abes dh cuti winter break nih, takde nk g mana2 sgt dh... kalo x aku dh x larat. Aku makin hari makin dimakan kerunsingan ttg result exam aku dan kalo ianya tak brapa memberansangkan, mcm mana aku nk counter back balik... Adoiii... cuak2... 

gila aku dibuatnya... betapa  byk harapan dan tanggungjawab yg ada pada bahu aku skg nih... Yg paling mencuakkan, Anatomy... Aku mmg btul2 rasa seolah2 dah takde sisa harapan la utk subjek tuh. Aku mohon sgt supaya aku punyai daya utk bangkit kalau2 aku ‘kalah’. .. Aku tak nak rasa down sampai aku berputus asa. Na’uzubillah...

Tapi utk mid year exam  ni, aku dh dpt sume feel. Harap2 aku takkan buat kesilapan yg sama bab ‘self-management’ ni... aku dh dpt atmosphere, corak dan lekuk2 cabaran yg bakal aku hadapai nanti utk final, just some lil’ clue...

Waa... aku nak balik Malaysia dgn aman!

p/s: my breakfast; orange and a glass of milk... haha... mngenyangkan bukan?

Brown Eyes Sight

“sedapnya pe yg Naqiyan Anis mkn tuh...”

then I stunt myself, “no, no, no... It’s almost midnight and I am concerning on sloppy bulk of fats now. My bad.”

I turned to the kitchen for a nice warm mug of milk before that, one of the ways to get rid of eating something silly like biscuits and bla3 in this inappropriate time.

There are people who say, “aku malas la nak pantang2 bab makan ni..”

Then you will regret if you lose one of those benefits God gifted in your body. I don’t want to be sick sooner, and I do not wish a slow motioned moving limbs (because of ‘extra baggage’ I have).

Oh yeah, applying milk essence (don’t think that thing is actually exists) really helps in case u wanna make plump seducing reddish pink lips. That’s why from that day that my former school warden said the acceptable nutritional fact, I stuck my nose and do the ‘lactose-sipping’ process from day to day. My hypothesis, it’s good if the milk is warm coz chemical reaction is faster that way. Whatever. Miscellaneous babbling ends in this paragraph.

Today my housemates and I made a good trip to a book fair in Egypt. This annual fair is a must-to-go. I’ve been longing to get my butt on a book. I guess I bought books with reliable contents; Healing Body and Soul, As if Muhammad is Here, Journey to Ten Thousand Veils and one single odd fellow; Gossip Girl: I Will Always Love You... Opps, can’t help with that. Hee.

Appealing love novels attract the girls. As predicted, those are not for me. Na’ah. Not to mention, I don’t understand why I hate Harry Potter novel so sudden, compared to where I can still take an academic literary look on the movies... And the lame thin cover of the novel made it worse. The drawings of the book cover was unfortunately the kind of thing, or anything I do not have the idea what to call that; but it’s just so...err, scary? Oh dear.

“Is that the well known novel for real? Why it looks so cheap? Why there is such version? Where the original print with hard cover went?”

Yeah, baby... That’s sad. I hate J. K. Rowling for that; for allowing such cruelty to literature, arts and writings. Haha. Because the genuine copy I saw the last time (when I was a school student) was different. I swear. That was the second time I saw lame printing of Harry Potter’s. Before this, there were Harry Potter’s absurdly translated to Malay+thin covered? No offense to my beloved official language of Malaysia, just that I hate fakers and anything close to fakers deadly to hell. I hardly find a loyal and true friend, which could be the reason why I think people just do not mind or care to make friends with me and I scarcely can have some faith in people. Back to the main core, it’s more than just an issue of a book cover.

Every element I see is always more than what the eyes can tell. For the second time, I hate fakers and I hate for not having choices other than play fake, fake, fake bogus acts in my life, just to make sure no one’s ever, ever sympathise on me... Hope I do not have to pretend any longer. Ameen. 

I’ll end this post with a reminder to myself, 

“Dear Allah my Almighty Lord, thanks for giving me a chance to live life for the better, for the wrong doings I’ve indicated too much in my life. I pray that you let me be among your grateful righteous servant.”

Anatomy is Easier than Physiology: I disagree

ni mesti effect aku amek air gas tadi... selamba jerr nk exam mnum air gas... glerr ngantok... padan muka. ni mmg aku compensate r tdo yg xcukup for Anatomy uhh... Tah bape tah markah yg aku dpt... Adoi malunya aku, mcm ak dpt markah rendah je? Aku hanya berserah sbab ak dah pun anta ktas jawapan...

Tu satu hal kalo tak ingat structure2 badan dlm anatomy nih, satu hal lagi kalo tertukar bende ni ngan bende tuh, mahu masak aku... Aku mmg mcm thp give up+paling down r kalo cter bab Anatomy. Buat aku teringat mcm mana aku mmg malas pikir psl subjek Sejarah kat high school dulu... tau tak, dulu subjek Sejarah the first(masa form 1) and the last (masa trial SPM+SPM) jerr markah aku memuaskan, a.k.a. dpt A... yg tgh2 tuh? mmg aku target dpt B je r... Sbenarnya ada harapan utk skor, tapi keimanan vs. ke’lagha’an ada di situ... of course r, pna gak aku pikir, mak aihhh... aku ni nakal ikut prangai sape laa...

so aku harap2 la aku akan fix n upgrade Anatomy method aku n utk subjek2 lain dlm medics nih... mmg prasaan sbijik masa aku jumpa form 4 r, perasaan kena planning utk upgrade cara belajar... I had been aware of this situation. Mana ada spoon feeding lagi... Sendiri kena berusaha bertawakkal ngan berkat doa org2 tersayang juga.... haishhh... tak sabo2 nak abes exam yg ditamatkan ngan tamatnya paper Mid Year Biochemistry...