She who He Hates Most

Rs cm sayu jerr tgk blog post yg lama ouh… so ttbe rs cm nk mnaip di pagi (3.30 am) ni…

Ek eleyh… xde kje tol…

Suddenly this outdated girl got to this vid. Mngingatkan ak ttg sorg manusia yg sampai skg claim ak tipu dia. Yes, mmg ak tipu dia lepas ak tau siapa dia. By heart, ak tipu dia. jari jemari dlm video ni ingatkan ak kat dia, bukan ‘kenangkan’ ak kat dia. There WAS my dream watching him play. Cuma teringatkan DENDAM dia. Ak ulang, bukan melagha ttg dia. He said, “Yes that’s true’’ when I asked, “You made such grudge on me?”… post-high school thing. I decided to step back when I knew the real him. 

Tup2 ak lari dari benda2 ngarut, masuk INTEC, then lari ke Egypt lak… Fuuhhh… xmo patah balik ke tempat yg xde hala tuju. And without any means, I made a vulnerable promise long time ago. Feels like a curse gak la… tah nape tah ak baik hati sgt tanya kaba nk tau dia ok ke x baru2 ni… Sah2 mmg tak okay r… paling teruk, mmg nmpk cm ak bukak luka semalam r kiranya… cehh… tlg r, Maya Dealove’s not so desperado…  Padah juga, padah concern tak memasal… just ak hrp dia btul2 dpt lupakan at least muka ak mahupun spec ak walopun dia ckp, “It’s the pain you can never forget”(ak dibenci tahap gila)…

Apa2 hal pun ak x perlukan komen yg bbentuk PNGAJARAN or STUPID JOKE or “SIAPA DIA” utk post nih. U know, I really tried to cut off emotions in this post. Your bad if it’s too sentimental.

p/s: Believe me, it’s NOT feelings I posted here. It’s how much ppl can hate me as much I used to hate life back then.