Sunday, May 31, 2009

MEEL 01- INTEC: Goodbye Home (Chapter One)

Have you ever wondered in such ways psychological attack; be it by concious or instantaneously, can really affect your actions? That happened to me. First moment I stepped in the International Education Centre (INTEC) UiTM hostel located in Section 18, Shah Alam I was almost stunned, thinking that there will be all those smart students being gathered at one single place. But then I made myself cool down. “There’s nothing to be afraid of,” I reminded myself. The reminder blown up into pieces when I walked after the gate:-


First attack, “Smart Students”

Second attack, “Are those seniors? I looked like a donkey in the city”

From my observations, we will become panic, anxious or hysterically worry if we do not have enough information or ideas. So the best way is we should always try to make ourselves prepared or just be rational. Planning is everything even though we must still hold to the principle, “Man proposes, God disposes”. I am attracted to Miss Hasnaa’s statement, “Being nervous is normal.” That was absolutely true. It is not whether you can remain calm all the time or vice versa. Humans have adrenal gland to produce adrenaline, a type of hormone which can increase heart beat rates. So from that you get the uneasy feeling when you are nervous. Even Janice Dickinson admits the roles of adrenaline in modelling.


Back to the adrenaline matter, you should not be stopped by your own nervousness. It is all about how much you can channel that adrenaline into your actions. Also, to ensure how much your brain can help you to make things positive. Yes, our mind plays huge vital roles in our actions. Do not be surprised if right after you say to yourself that you could not remember a thing regarding to the facts in the Biology book, the next day you have to crawl to get the memories back.


Overall, I found that most of the students in my class were not that aggressive like an old friend of mine. That old friend was so different from the others. Still, I belief one day when everyone in MEG5 starting to know each other better, I’ll find the real sides of my new friends.


I missed my old pal, because she taught me so much of standing to our own principles and beliefs. Usually, she would be the one that we admire in my former class during high school. And for your information, sometimes we as a duo had strong influence to our friends. In social skills, we should be more constructive. Everybody knows the value to raise one’s motivation and self confidence is priceless.Based on the proverb, "A friend in need is a friend indeed", the meaning of having a friend is to have a friend who support us when we feel down and will remind us if we are lost. Will I find that kind of friendship with a new friend perhaps? May these three months be worth it all.



Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Don't Waste Your Time on Me. You're Already the Voice inside My Head

"adik rindu kat ko" mak kata kat aku


"nanti akak download lagu ni, Blink 182-I Miss You"adik aku kata, makan dlm siott...


Mcm tulah ekspresi yg ditunjukkan... Aku dah agak dah, kalo aku ditelefon atau menelefon mak aku, aku akan terkenang2... kalo ada competition apa2 pn aku x selesa parents aku dtg... Haha... Teruk kerr aku? I don't think so... because mak akulah kekuatan dan kelemahan aku... Cian parents aku... Not really, just joking... Sape tak syg family... Makin lama rasa nak balik uma membuak2...


Semalam antara hari yg pnuh knangan buat aku. Akhirnya aku dpt la gak chatting walopun kjap ngan kwn lama... (Weyh, Amar... rindu glerr kot kt awk!!!)... Smalam gak aku dpt kenalan baru, iaitu kwn chatting kpd kwn chatting aku... hehe... That new fren lives in Egypt, so it's a chance for me to enhance my Ammiyah... Huk3...


Padan muka aku lama sgt tak call mak... Last2 skali dlm tepon, berjam2... Tu pun mak aku yg call sbb kalo nk hrpkan smartvoip, mmg terpekik2 r masing2...


So alasan aku call mak aku b4 mak aku call aku balik masa tuh ialah nak ckp psl borang yg Teacher fazlinda suh isi... Aku takut kalo aku ckp, "org rindu" or "org rindu glerr" or "org syg" Ego yg sama di situ... Ciss, bukan apa, aku tak nak mak aku akan sedih, aku kan jauh ni haa, jauh lagi dari mata dia... hanya mak aku jerr pna nanges masa call aku dari Makkah, tapi aku kat Egypt ni masa dlm tepon aku tahan jerr rasa mcm nk nanges terharu... Fuh3... aku tak bape suka nak tunjuk nilai sentimental... alih2, kalo dh tak tahan, haa... sumer berderai... Aku takkan lupa pd mereka2 yg initiate tear gland aku... pedih2....


haha.. Ada kerr adik aku tuka balik profile Myspace dia, di tambah


"I have a sister who is shorter than me but fierce"


p/s: amboi3, tak padan ngan grammatical error ko nk tambah lg ayat ea... :d


Masa teacher ckp psl borg, aku mati2 igtkan borg alumni ke apa, considering I was so damnly reluctant to fill that form during Kecemerlangan day... Member aku la, "malas r, takyah isi la...".... hehe...mcm tulah prangai ex-SAMTSH (mcm tak biasa nama skola baru, Sultan Hishamuddin...kui2)... panggil SAMTH jerr bole tak???



So rupanya2 for some kind of anugerah... I don't know how they give that award, tp yg pasti akn skali ngan maal hijrah... Krajaan selangor kot bagi... Whatever la. kalo dpt tak dpt aku tak kisah... Tp kalo dpt lg bes kan... Mak aku bangga, aku bahagia... kalo aku dpt pun, parents yg amekkan... My appealing attention now is to get my butt back to revision... smemangnya dlm 43 MCQ td, aku salah 9...perghh, byk woo... soalan snang ptt dpt full marks... tapi tu utk satu tajuk jerr, 'Intro' to Physiology...


Alamak! mcm mana ngan anatomy!!! oh, daku seram ngan anatomy... Chawww.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Taken by Surprise

ttbe ak jumpa kak Umi yg pna aku kenal kat tempat ak pna kje part time... excited bercampur cuak ms bukak facebook dia...
tau2 jela... ms ak kje kt situ r kemuncak ak wat hal y takde spe tau smpai skg... antara dia si gila ******** tu, Bro F, aku n Allah Taala jerr.... mmg takde spe tau...not even kak Umi, my super senior... Not even my closest friends...

Ak igt ak ley bebas sbb dh tak dikelilingi dak skola ak, skali... aduss... siap kne tegur mkn dalam kot... psl pakaian punya psl la... psl iman ak y tahap rendah underground laa... sbb tu ak jadi mcm tuh... hancusss...

Arghhh...
ak ingat lg aku nangis2 kt mak lpas balik dari kje...

Sudah la kne tegur any sgt mnyentuh ati ak, kantoi pula ngan Bro F psl kegiatan 'ingin tahu' ak...
SERIK3... nasib baik aku kantoi... kalo x ak tak tau mcm mna nk kua dari jerat y aku bina sendiri pakai ego yg suka mencabar diri sendiri tak kena cara...Huhh.

Ttbe rasa rindu d hati pd kak Umi... Antara org2 yg baik kt tempat kje ak tuh... huhu... Tau2 dia dh pn diijabkabulkan ngan lelaki yg dicintainya... 3 oktober 2009... aisey... baru jerr bberapa bulan ak tinggalkan Malaysia... mcm2 dh berubah... Mesti nti ak tak tau cter pe yg ada kt channel M'sia skg... haha...mesti adik ak akan kata, “laa... akak xtau ke lagu nih... baru jerr kua kat Hitz”