Doubted Post: Think I Posted Twice

Cairo University International Day. It’s an out-of-date story, but yesterday, suddenly I remembered one thing. That one single thing which defected my mood that very calm morning. That one senior. Opps, slipped my words. Haha. Like I care.

Well, this is not the blog to hate people or to spread words of hate. I guess she’s just so anti-social kind of thing that she speaks without alert of others might feel. I don’t say direct way of talking isn’t the best way. I’m just saying that the method of delivering words might mean anything. She wasn’t speaking vulgar words, she’s kind, detailed, smart and experienced (of course, she’s a senior. hehh). Maybe it’s just that I haven’t mentally prepared that time huh?

Not saying that I squeezed to death the part of me for that event. Not saying that I did everything for our booth. But coming out of nowhere,

“This is not fushah (standard) Arabic, this one is ammiyah (daily words)” Kak X says

I put my usual fake smile shine that only the experts will notice. “Who are you? Where’re h*** you come from? Do you have the right to talk that WAY (like you’re better, like you’re waYYYYYY more expert)?”

 Well folks, seeing the words might be not provoking enough but seeing the body language, that inner evil of me had been raised. At least I tried to do a fake smile for positivity. Yeah! M is positive.  

(Amoi 1: BUZZER! Be professional M! Not just emotions...)

M: Haha. Thanks Amoi 1. Fuhh.

Then she added other venomous words, “They (Some people that I can’t remember who) will say something for this.”

Then I said, “I referred to a book. It says that it’s still considered fushah”

After I replied, she just shut her mouth, like “Oh, okay. But I don’t really care. I still know better than you.” I know that sounds like negative thinking, but sometimes faces tell everything.  She left our humble booth.

“Dia tu tak mcm usia dia. Gaya mcm bdk2 sikit” a kind Kak R  said

M’s heart says, “Alright, I can see that.” hahaha

The point is, not telling you’re wrong. Just telling you not to act like a health inspector, bossily checking around our booth and suddenly criticize something which you don’t really know yet. The brain behind the book was someone with a certification in Arabic language. Pardon me if the author was wrong. Can’t you just ask, “Dari mana dpt ni?” or “Betul ke ni mmg fushah?” Perhaps she should join my high school camp’s group work which teaches us how different tones of the same sentence can mean something.  She looks really smart plus I heard she learns with the Egyptians while most of Malaysian students take classes separated from the Arabs (Fully English). That was the first time I met the uncool senior in Egypt. Could be caused by sins. Haihh

p/s: some TOO-SMART-STUDENTS really need communication skills or shall I say, a little bit of sensitivity?

Amoi 2: Aiyaa M, you terlalu sensitip maa…

M:La, mana dtg pulak Amoi 2 ni? Hee. BTW, I don’t think Kak X meant anything. Apa2 sajalah… :p

Sya'ban at the Eleventh Hour

Sedia maklum, telefon bimbitku yg lama itu sudah sampai ke penghujung kemampuannya.  Rancangan terpaksa diolah, tak ada spare jawabnya. Oh tak mengapalah. Telefon baru mesti dibeli jua. Mulanya aku aku dah target satu model dari jenama Siti Errica, tapi aku akhirnya beralih kpd jenama Rokiah pula. Katanya Siti Errica terlalu delicate. Maklumlah, lihat saja 2 pita perekat yg menjawab jerih perit yg dilalui The Old Rokiah.Tiba2 aku meragui ketahanan Siti Errica.

Moga kau bertahan lama wahai Rokiah Jr.... Haihh… (At least ‘till M got mumtaz in every subject… muahaha… sounds like forever…) 

sreeeetttt..... AKU TAK SUKA MERAPU!!! Serabut Betul... Aiyaa

Itu bukan cerita utamanya…

Insya Allah, beberapa jam lagi kita akan menyambut 1 Ramadhan. Memetik kata2 seorang penceramah, “Moga sebulan itu dpt kita gunakan sebaik-baiknya, bukan sibuk dgn baju raya atau langsir…” (Ngee… Baju rayaku dah settle, amoi banyak senang hati…)

p/s: source: http://www.jannah.org/ramadan/ramadanhadiths.html

"Ramadan is the (month) in which the Quran was sent down, as a guide to mankind and a clear guidance and judgment (so that mankind will distinguish from right and wrong).." (Surah al-Baqarah, verse 185)

Narrated Abu Huraira (r.a): The Prophet said:"... whoever fasts during Ramadan out of sincere faith and hoping to attain Allah's rewards, then all his past sins will be forgiven."(Sahih Al-Bukhari)

Vibrant Pink

"M ambillah tudung yg tu, M kan suka beli brg dari patung."

Okay, Fine lah... Dlm hati ni, "MAK!!!" Mkn dlm punya... Isk3... Tak baik tau...

Tak kisahlah, aku dah pun beli tudung BUKAN dari patung tu. Agak kurang selesa dgn potongannya yg ala2 tutup kolar baju shj. Aku maksudkan ialah tudung syria, yg org sibuk perkatakan sekarang ni. Maybe I'll just buy the scarf. Not the ridiculously tiny hijab. 

Aku takkan minta maaf sbb dah terlebih post aku ttg pakaian. I just can't help it. I drew few sketches when I was little and Mom says people don't eat drawings. You want to sew dresses? You'll make your glasses thicker (As if Medicine doesn't make short-sightedness worse. Heh) Sorry to get carried away. Art is just a fragment of me. Speaking about garment designs which won't sell. Haha. Gosh I am paranoia about one time people asked in a Co-Whatever activity in INTEC, "Adakah anda seorang yg mementingkan duit?" Hey, just because people grab coins as much as they can in a lied back activity , doesn't mean he's materialistic. Be REASONABLE. 

Huh, majlis Tilawah al-Quran Peringkat Antarabangsa ke-52 telah pun melabuhkan tirainya mlm tadi. Juara qari ialah wakil dari Mesir dan naib johan ialah wakil dari Malaysia. Bagai ironis bukan? Hehehe. Bagi qariah, Johan ialah wakil dari pakistan... Berita Selanjutnya di sini.

p/s: Bapa saudaraku sdg sakit. Moga Allah menyembuhkan beliau... waktu Malaysia jam 1.53 pm

Dugaannya Lain-lain

Apabila aku melangkah ke KLIA yg tersergam indah, aku terasa 'jakun' sebentar.

"RAMAINYA ORG M'SIA!!!"

Ya... Itulah bisikan hati manusia yg baru setahun berhadapan dgn,

"Ni hao, ni hao..."  dan lebih menyakitkan hati, "jhfhufbc  shue huu hshsusbsjshdcj" seolah2 mengejek percakapan kami. Huh, aku yg terlalu emotional. (Usahlah ambil hati tak tentu pasal, M...)

"Aku lempang juga anak Arab ni." Aku masih seorang yg 'berdarah panas', tapi boleh dikawal... haha

Dugaan di mesir lain, kekacauan jiwa di malaysia lain. Selak surat khabar, opps, artis Malaysia berpakaian spertinya standard zaman ini begitu. Tak kasar jika saya katakan, berpakaian seolah2 mahu melenyapkan Islam dan bangsa sendiri. Buka televisyen, opps, apakah keserabutan itu? Nasib baik masih disiarkan Majlis Tilawah al-Quran peringkat antarabangsa tu. Jikalau semua program keagamaan pun dah tak ada dlm media massa, tak tahulah apa yg tinggal. Secara terus terang, dulu aku yg 'rebellious' mmg tak hirau semua tu. Tak pernah sedar kekosongan yg bersarang, berhabuk dlm hati ini. Apa2 lah. 

Makin aku duduk lama di Malaysia, aku terasa kekosongan tu. Diburukkan dgn kenangan hodoh, sakitnya Tuhan sahaja yg Maha mengetahui. Itulah, dugaan Mesir lain, dugaan di sini lain. Jadi aku sgt mengagumi insan yg masih boleh teguh iman dan akidahnya menetap di bumi yg semakin dirosakkan makhluk tak bertanggungjawab  ni.

Bukan aku kata bahawa Mesir itu org2 nya alim semuanya. Sana pun ada juga couple. 'Couple', istilah BODOH yg diamalkan sesetengah kwn2 sebaya dan tak sebaya aku. Tapi itulah, dugaannya lain-lain. Aku ambil pengajaran di sini, aku tak boleh lari dari godaan. Dulu aku berniat, aku mahu terbang jauh2, 13 jam utk lari. tapi sekarang aku kembali. Sekejap sahaja sudah memeritkan. Sebelum terbang bukan tak sempat berdakwah shj, malah aku tenggelam dek memberontak. Aku fikir lagi, sesudah peroleh ijazah mampukah aku kembangkan Islam dlm pekerjaanku? Oh tenatnya...

p/s: tidak boleh tidur. waktu malaysia: 2.58 pagi. Mungkin kerana siangnya balik dari tempat aku pernah lepak, aku terkenang seorang manusia ini melampau2. Astaghfirullahal 'azim

suka dgr ini byk kali. Boleh tanam rindu pada Rasulullah... :)