Telephone

Oh i got a common flu... "slurp2,"that's the mucus from my nasal region souns like.... Yucks... Not for me... hehe... Apa2 la...

Ak xdpt nk call adik ak, smart voip mcm tuuuuuut jerr... Huhu... Aku ley lupa lak pic mak ak kat home pc... Aku mmg sengaja x nk bwk pn, takut ak tenung lama2 dsebabkan kerinduan melapampau... semuanya ada dalam flash memory ak. ak tak perlukan pic utk org2 yg ak paling syg.

Ni pun sbb housemate kata nk tgk rupa paras mak ak yg wajah beliau kuning langsat, lbey cerah dari ak, mlambangkan kesucian hati nurani beliau... huuu.... Tu yg ak nga pikir nk mintak adikku yg syafaf kata nampak baik tuh tlg email kan gambo my Mom tuh... adoii2...mcm mna ni, x top up lg, xdpt call... mak ak mesti nk tau pe kabonya ak kat sini... haishhhh...

weyh, kat bawah ni cth lirik utk zaman serba hedonisme nih...hehehe... lagu yg ada music arrangement mcm ni la yg ak akn dgr time tension2+bodo2+ignorant dulu... well, so u all takyah la terkejut kalo ideologi bdk2 melayu skg lain...asl tension jerr g dance floor. hahaha... oh, post kali ni adalah hasil kemerepekan ku yg terulung... adioz...

Telephone

[Lady Gaga]
Hello, hello, baby
You called, I cant hear a thing.
I have got no service
in the club, you see, see
Wha-Wha-What did you say, huh?
youre breaking up on me
Sorry, I cannot hear you,
Im kinda busy.

K-kinda busy
K-kinda busy
Sorry, I cannot hear you, Im kinda busy.

Just a second,
its my favorite song theyre gonna play
And I cannot text you with
a drink in my hand, eh?
You shoulda made some plans with me,
you knew that I was free.
And now you wont stop calling me;
Im kinda busy.

Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna think anymore!
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna talk anymore!
I left my hand and my heart on the dance floor.

Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Im busy!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh

Can call all you want,
but theres no one home,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!
Cuz Im out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!

Call when you want,
but theres no one home,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!
Out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!

[Beyonce]
Boy, the way you blowin up my phone
wont make me leave no faster.
Put my coat on faster,
leave my girls no faster.
I shoulda left my phone at home,
cuz this is a disaster!
Callin like a collector -
sorry, I cannot answer!

Not that I dont like you,
Im just at a party.
And I am sick and tired
of my phone r-ringing.
Sometimes I feel like
I live in Grand Central Station.
Tonight Im not takin no calls,
cause Ill be dancin.

Cause Ill be dancin
Cause Ill be dancin
Tonight Im not takin no calls, cause Ill be dancin!

Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna think anymore!
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna talk anymore!
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.

Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna think anymore!
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin, stop callin,
I dont wanna talk anymore!
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.

Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin me
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Im busy!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
Stop telephonin me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh

Can call all you want,
but theres no one home,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!
Cuz Im out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!

Call when you want,
but theres no one home,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!
Cuz Im out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!

My telephone!
M-m-my telephone!
Cuz Im out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!

My telephone!
M-m-my telephone!
Cuz Im out in the club,
and Im sippin that bubb,
and youre not gonna reach my telephone!

Were sorry the number you have reached is not in service at this time.
Please check the number, or try your call again.

Big Hearted, My Lady

Aku: Nape org (aku) dilahirkan mcm ni?
Mak: tak baik ckp mcm tu... Kan takdir Allah...

Aku: eee... tah apa2 tah org tu mcm ni, bla3...
Mak: dia kan ciptaan Tuhan, tak baik menghina ciptaan Tuhan...

Aku: mak, td ada org condemn+ejek org (aku)
Mak: siapa dia tuh? Kurang ajar nyerrr... Dia tu dh cukup bagus ke?

Aku: org teringin nk tgk dunia mcm org2 lain yg x pakai specky
Mak: Hmm... dah mkn supplement blueberry yg mak beli tuh?

kalo dulu, bole la mak ak defend aku kalo ada org rendahkan anak dia, kalo ada org buat anak dia mnangis... huuu... jd la ak bdk yg manja to the power of mega....

Sbab dia tau anak2 dia yg dua org je nih sgt2 sensitif... even adik ak yg laki, dulu sama je ngan ak geng kuat nangis bila org ejek2 dpan org ramai...

Tapi lama2 ak yg kne defend diri ak sendiri... kalo org senda2 kan aku pd bnde yg sensitif, perkara pertama yg berada dlm minda aku ialah mak aku... Jikalau ak ni bdk emo yg dgr music grunge, dah lama dh ak ucap, "Go to hell u suckers"... Tp bukan kah lebih baik muhasabah diri sendiri? hmmmm... ish3

Aku ingat lg kata2 kwn aku pd zaman hingusan dulu, "ko ni pakai buruk2 g skola... Npe r ko pakai ksut buruk ni..."

Tp aku aku balas, "Aku nk blaja g skola, bukan nk mlawa2..."

Kali kedua 'kawan baik' ak tu kata bnde yg lbih kurg sama, aku direct jerr jawab,

"baju ko lawa2 pun duit mak bapak ko gak...takyah la nak bangga2"

then 'kawan baik' ak lg sorg kata, "eee, takyah r ckp mcm tu dohh kalo ye pn jeles.."

Ahh, ko nk back up kwn ak yg dah terdiam tu kerr.. Hmm, nk sgt ckp ngan ak bende kuang ajo mcm tuh... Amek ar... By the other side, elok la member tegur psl imej... since I got hyper sensitivity with something related to the loved ones....

Sbenarnya kalo ikutkan, 'ak tak terkata apa2... Takde kata2 ley disusun ms tuh... Nahh, skg ni yg ak sbenarnya nk kata ms tuh, "...KO DAH HINA APA YG MAK AKU BAGI KAT AKU"

I have fashion sense too, but that time, for me it's not worth to be appraised of something which not belong to us. And all covering and functioning on our body are His... Dan caranya Allah bagi kat ak pd suatu ketika dulu, mak aku... Yg provide mcm2.... Kalo ak nk beli apa2, ak akan pikir mak aku... mak ak ada tak baju yg baru skg ni? mak ak makan apa skg nih? mak aku hepi x skg nih? mak aku stres ke skg nih??? Well, I hope she doesn't lose her shopping hobby at apparel stores forever. Heh.

Just today, the question forwarded to me. Let make things simple. Here it goes: whenever ppl apologies to me, " I'll undoubtedly say..."I don't like ppl asking for my forgiveness...

I know that it's the fact of manners. I appreciate that. I also appreciate SO MUCH that u just want to end our lectures with joy... WOW, what an awesome way... Wonder how am I going to deal with this weakness... I am so weak... Wow, x sporting nyerr ak... rilek arr... kan ke elok org gembira, gelak2... bes jerr ad gak org dlm dunia nih pndai gurau2... prasaan ak je tuh org mcm jatuhkan maruah ak dpan mak arab, pak arab nyanyi bnde yg ley goyahkan akidah byk2 kali... perghh.. takde kne tempias kt aku pun... student Msia yg sama kuliah pn suka cmtuh... Ptt nyerr gelak skali laa... mcm r ak xpna gelak....

Whatever3... these r the reasons y Maya Dealove is not someone u can ask for forgiveness:-

1) Ask for God's forgiveness is better
2) You never think of what ur saying whether someone will hurt or was that attitude a little bit too much for some people? Or ur act will get 1 heart broken? Oh yeah, that time u was enjoying ur much of a joke by making fun of ppl. Pheww.. that's fun...

It's simple to make apologies. But how many of us think before saying something? Maybe every time I feel offended I should cry so that 'they' will know? In my imagination, I just want to book a flight and go back to Malaysia or some place where pppl aren't 'stupid'...

No such thing as that. FYI, 'Alice in Wonderland' is a fake. And Cinderella too. Yepp...

For I know that was also a part of a way in which God replenishes my faith or diminishes my sins, who knows. That's why I don't actually respond to apologies. As whatever embarrassment or irritation hit me, could be by my sins. Allah knows the best.

Or it's just bcoz of this 'unfinished matter' of my past... When I was Form 2... Those twerps... I don't know. They are too jealous of me? The teased me with names, they hide my shoe... Then when I shut my bloody hell , mouth and lock my face to the surface of the desk, they say, "Sorry, (real name)..." In my heart, "shit3..."

then I,

"woi! DIAM ARR"

Dorang terus senyap, mcm org kebengapan. dlm hati aku yg gelap masa tuh nak jerr aku ckp, "DIAM ARR BODOH...bla3..."

Opps, ke aku dah ckp dah masa tuh??? keh3... rs nya 3 kali or lbey kot ak maki. I'm improving now kot. at least skg ak campur gak ngan org.

Dan disebabkan masalah yg bertimpa2 kat aku sama ada dari segi masalah emosi, family atau kekekokan ak mencari kwn... Aku mmg seorang yg sgt emo... ak xde kwn lgsung. ak kua asrama. senior ckp bnde provokatif sket aku terus nangis... last2 bila asrama tu takde air la, itula, inila..pantang2 takut setan kacau la... bla3... aku kua..puas ati aku..no rules, no commands...No saman2, no otak kampung senior or rakan2 sebaya... HUUU... I was free...

The saddest thing is that, ak ni ada calar balar parut fobia+trauma+kesedihan+kesepian ms silam... Sbb tu ak sensitif pd perkara tertentu...dan ms ak mnaip post ni, ak nangis... sbab dh lama org tak 'trigger' tear gland ak sekaligus bwk balik memori trauma silam aku ke bumi Mesir nih.... Aku berdoa supaya ak akan dpt hidup mcm insan normal lain... Ameen...

Pabila aku jrg atau susah mnangis pd satu2 masa tertentu, ttbe org buat aku nangis, org tu la org yg paling TERUK dlm dunia ni sbb ak takkan nangis sbab hobi, kebodohan atau suka suki aku. Cuma ada 2, 3 perkara besar yg boleh buat ak nangis dan skali tercetus... seharian ak x dpt nk hentikan air mata. biarla pe yg jd kter jdkan teladan... tu jerr... no heart feelings. Dan skali lg, aku takkan review atau ulas apa yg ak tulis dlm blog kat luar...

maksud>>>sape2 yg sibuk baca blog ak, takyah nk tanya2 ak berkaitan pe yg tercoret dlm blog nih... aku x suka. Sekian~

She: Humble Affection of Amaya Hideaki

Aku makan tak lalu, aku sgt la tak bape nk smangat ari ni.... I miss my family, I miss everyone I love... And we finished our first Anatomy’s spotting exam... Think I spotted the wrong muscle... That’s so ridiculous. Coz it’s like this; there’re 5 stations where 2 stations of bone and 3 stations of muscle and (soft tissues that could be artery, vein, nerve)... each station has 2 questions... And I was like err, blurr? Amaya is the night rain...Her skin is so cold, so dramatic and undeniably slushy... It’s so easy that I swear to God I memorized too many times. I wonder, “Do all who madly love Physiology hate Anatomy?”...Whatever...

But I almost cried before my turn because the atmosphere in the Anatomy lab was a bit more scary... Yup, as in... An examination prefect says, “Move...!!!!” for every 2 minutes...

I gave out a suggestion by this right-cerebrum sided mind that time, “Why don’t just use the word ‘next!’ instead of that bloody as hell word ‘move’????” It’s like the line where the police or criminals use in movies, for very restraining situations like, “You! Move...!!! Move it, move it, move it...!”

Then again, a doctor might get more than that... More than ‘Move’! Maybe, “You’re so clumsy, careless...” or “What actually u do in medical school?”... Even death-staking piercing words, “Your degree is actually valid or what...???” haha... Right? Totally... Waaa....Mommy... Dah la kje utk org takde SPM pun aku sampai nangis tak tahan... Mcm mana nih... Hmmm... Layak kerr aku ni? Ya Allah, siapalah hambaMu ini... Isk3... Aku bersyukur sgt sebab rasa cepat dengki n bfikiran negatif kat ssetgh org makin berkurangan... I better evaluate myself first before others. Still, there are some fellows who might need some ‘style make over’... Not in scope of appearance (though it covers some of it), just... ishhh!!! terus terang la aku cakap, WEYHH.... MCAM MAKCIK2 LAA... KALO AKU TGK KO MESTI AKU TERINGAT MAK AKU... MAK AKU LG ADA STYLE KOT... Eeee... apa2 la... Aku dah boleh biasakan diri aku ngan ko kot... Errmmmm, apa2 la.... lantak la... Tak mintak duit aku sudah. full stop.

Err... Forget about that... Like I said, it’s better that ourselves be the first to be evaluated than others...Only God knows why this and that go like this and that... Bla, bla, blaaaaa.....

Shopping: Red Riding Hood

menaip, menaip dan menaip... tu jela kje aku....

So I was just back from getting my first visa here..
And I brougt back a new coat, and two shirts specially for this bone-chilling cold season.
the first moment I saw that coat, I thought, is this the only colour they have????
Chilli red coat... Hmm, may I won't catch one of the eyes around me, not even for a sec.
Then I got back home, I tried it on for the second time, it was not that seducing though...

And along our walk in Tahren (or however it is spelled), those cunning housemates kept calling me 'org kaya'...

Dear3... I am not posh nor born by a very well-respected heir... So I am not 'org kaya' ok... Hahaha... Suka2 jerr u all wat lwk cmtuh...

My way of trying to avoid splendid shopping is always misunderstood. but again, shouldn't I just enjoy before I work hardly plus death straining in my becoming dream professionalism??? Can I be what we always say, "i work for Allah" and so and so???? Or like what some hypocrites say? I am a human... Wouldn't I change back to my nasty behalves? Why sometimes I always feel hurtfully jealous of someone who is too kind? oh yeah, i almost forgot... I've been once as bad as hell once upon a time ago...

Why i am too afraid that no good man will find me???

So I questioned back my faith... Am I that good? How many percent is my belief to His power?I know that inheritance can't be a possible excuse but what about in its reality? How much will I be? Just moderate? More to blindly following like a total stupid loser? Ya Rabbi, I plead for a strength. They say there will be no much to enjoy once you are in a specified job. Therefore, I wonder how much I can just make things joyful... 'RESPONSIBLE'.... will that word be fun? Not that I am so over terrified to carry out my duites. But just imagine, it's like the whole world be dependent on you.

Sometimes i feel terribly guilty for spending JPA's money for clothes. But then, I just can't... Seriously cannot wear the same outfit all over again...Nah...no, no no... wait a minute... I was not spending JPA's when it comes to clothes coz i still have a sum of money Mom gave me... assume I can pay back what i've spent...Hope it'll last till the end of semester.

Just this matter, reminded by our senior, "...Don't make the Malaysians look so rich or you'll make us deep trouble..." (Speaking about the Egyptions....)

Exception for uniforms coz they just won't tell the difference... I should settle on this problem. The allergy upon second-time wore clothes... There were several times where I open up my wardrobe... Oh no!!! The same apparels wore like about, err... two weeks ago? Let me remind myself, I am not ungrateful, okay!!!!!?

I'm sorry that I just can't be that kind of humbly wear whatever there in the closet. sorry if I ain't that girl you've been waiting for... And that's the second reason why I save too much. well, I think... hahahaha... Hmm.. Thereby, I sadly notify that I am feeling down of knowing the fact that I think men just don't like shopaholic girls...

Smoochy Mooch

Ohh... ari ni ari jadi Hard... uhuuu...

happy 18th birthday girl!!! Dah besar dah rupanya... hehe...

Ckp psl bab ‘dah bsar’ ni, pd suatu ari ni, aku call Syuk, just nk tanya khabar laa, mula2 pkai smart voip kerr, skype kerr ak pn x tau lerr... xpasti laa pulak...Tp dgr dri suara nya mcm dia ad maslah, atau dia nga bad mood. Adoi, sdey glerr...

hahaha...Tah apa2 r situasi mcm tuh... Then lpas ak balik lepak, ak guna nset lak... the 2nd time ak call Syuk, mmg sah2 dia takde keinginan pn utk bckp ngan spe2... Ok, fine arr.... Spatah ak tnya, spatah arr dia jwb... Dh arr dia tu ak aggp mcm abg... Takpe2 la... Baru smalam gak dia ltak kt wall Facebook ak, “...Yum dh bsar...”... Mne x sentimental nyerr beb...Pe lak halnya nih?


Ak x pasti imej dlm minda ak terus blank kerr, apa kerr... Pandangan ak kabur, mmg xsdar lgsung... Tp takkan r ak pengsan kot??? x pnah2 retarded+down mcm tuh...


Then alarm ak bbunyi pd sekitar jam 4 pg, pastu ak sambung tdo smpai subuh(alarm syafaf, suara beliau yg lunak lg merdu, pasti memikat brg siapa yg mdengarnya buat kali pertama dan berkali2 slepas itu...)... Dh bpe kali hajat ak utk tahajud+study pg terbantut... dan itulah kisahnya utk pg yg hening nih...

Natijah dari aku main redah jerr tdo tak bca doa tdo, aku mimpi benda yg pelik2... Well, xde arr pelik mne tp mmg sdikit pelik...Huhu, nmpk sgt permainan tdo... Ad kerr ak ley mimpi psl Syuk, di mana siuasi nya sgt2 ak x suka.. . whatever3...

Maisson de Dealove

Semalam telefon berbunyi, igtkan Mr P, ohh lega rupanya Anep Tanta... ahakz. Finally u reached me lil’ fellow. Whatever...

So today hard gave me her guarantee, I am that holder of ‘bestie award’, no others. Yeah3... ahakz... lil hard grown up, with her English proficiency too! Cheers for you... Wink3...

And that ‘batak baru buat Myspace’ lil’ brother of mine tak tdo2 lg walopun waktu msia dl;m kul 1, so aku dh suh dia g tdo. aku x tau r sama ada dia just log off Myspace tp still lyn web tah apa2 or mmg betul2 taat kt aku... hmm, most probably, depends la kat dia... mak ak most probably sudah pun masuk tdo... Aku dulu stay up Myspace sampai kul 4 pg sorg pun tak kacau...

so aku harap dia bukanlah mcm aku... Aduss2, aku takde kat uma utk control dia... takde lagi makhluk yg garang tuh kat uma aku. tawakkal jela. ikut suka kepala hotak ko la budak kicik... Nape stiap kali msti aku masukkan cerita ttg adik? suka ati aku la. kih3... gelak r weyhh, lawak bodoh nih... Sudah2, takmo senitimental2 nih...

ermm, pe ea cter arini? arini baru masok tajok Reiratory System for Physiology. Ohh no!!! Glerr psycho, tak tau laa bab praktikal anatomy nih... dah r nga ksejukan, ksejukan lg aku bila pikir bab anatomy yg dikatakan 5 soalan Upper Limb tuh... sabtu ni beb... Spoil weekend betul la. atas rasa tanggungjwb, redha jela. Sume nyerr krn Allah... Moga2 inilah jln utk ak lbey rpt ngan Tuhan. Iaitu ngan amek medic. Not to say ibadat is neglected, just I was referring to the verse stating how humans need to observe whasoever around and inside them, then think about who created them? Who makes them function? and so, and so, and so....

Antara perkara yg ditakuti oleh Maya Dealove di mesir: jalan raya nya...

>>After all that incident which happened to our cool friend, I am, afraid to get across the road... Gila kau.....!!! kena pandai bajet kaki takot digilis kenderaan yg asik ngan hon2 aneka iramanya tuh...

And finally Illeya a.k.a. Alya Sakinah Mubinah online facebook... Hmm... You’re my Muslimah Role Model... hehehe... berbanding ngan Maya Dealove n hard, kamoo lah yg memarah kami skiranya kami leka kat skola dlu2... keh3... ayat skema tahap spec tebal dua inci... tak berani aku nk blnd date kalo ko ada, Al... kui3... Aku takkan wat mende2 bodoh+sia2 tu dah... Astaghfirullahal’azim...wink2.. kerdipan manja khas utk mu... aisyyyy...

Bibir Mesra Jiwa Parah

glerr arrhh... aku mmg dh tak tahan dah...
ahaha
tiga buku aku ngadap...
Mmg mcm org ktagih rokok...
weh, aku internet addicted kerr???
No, no no...
Aku peduli perr...
mcm terpoisah ngan dunia kalo tak bkk tenet beb....

'Bibir Mesra Jiwa Parah'... kalo adik aku pernah suka lagu nih, aku pun secara autoimmune nyerr suka gak lagu nih... (kalo x, tak pna dgr abes... ahakz, 60's not my type)... Did I mentioned my younger brother tuned to 'Klasik Nasional' several times after Hitz??? Don't know if that's sarcasm or what...

Apa2 laa... back to the world wide webs...