What You Were

Hari ni hari jadi aku. Aku tak tau r nape aku mcm tak suka hari jadi aku ni. Ahahaha... Bukan sebab dah tua, bukan sebab org tak wish. Tadi Amar baru wish... Huhu...

Bila aku dgr lagu Battlefield by Jordin Sparks, sgt menyentuh hatiku. Aku ni sgt la jiwang. Tapi aku tak suka laki aku jiwang... Haha. Gurau jer.. Suka je, tapi kalo yg bagi ayat2 jiwang tak masuk akal mcm “Kau bidadariku” “Tgk bulan jerr mesti teringat ayang”... Tak nak aku mcm tu. Ni bukan zaman rambut jambul ke depan, berseluar yankee... Kui2...

Apa pun, hari jadi aku ni menunjukkan sudah genap 18 tahun aku hidup atas muka bumi ni.
“Why is love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield”

Aku org yg menghargai melodi, yg mengamati susunan kata dan yg sukakan kecintaan. Aku org yg pernah salah mendefinisikan cinta sedangkan aku tahu definisi sebenarnya. Aku Cuma tak mahu percaya hakikat pada masa tu. So love is universal. Between love and hatred, there’s Maya Dealove. I am born in between love and hatred, between pain and pleasure and between loneliness and companionship. Then there’s me. I am born happy because I don’t know how to think by that time I was just newly born. Sometimes I hated the fact that I know more and more. Truth became excruciating. Seductions were stronger for a weak mankind. Then there was me.

To get 18 years old is more than receiving birthday wishes, cakes and gifts. I do not mind so much about those. All I just want is that I am stronger. Not forget to mention, more matured like what Faris says. Dear Faris, “You reminded me of a thirty year old chatter I’ve been ‘accidently chatted with in a chat room I don’t have to mention.” A good suggestion from a kind friend, "Get back to 18 years old aged boy, not 30's"

The conclusion is, I always got butterflies in my stomach when it is the date I was born. If only I do not remember that today is the 8th of November, I would be happy enough. I hate anxiety. Gosh, do I have to go to class today? Ahakz.

Weh2, kenal tak Justin Bieber? Tak kenal takpe... Saje jerr buat kuiz pagi2 ni. Siapa tu? Search r sendiri... Hahaha.... (kesengalan terserlah)